Kiss Goodbye

i wish i could

2010-10-29T02:58:00.001-07:00

I wish i could everyday accompany u....
but i knw i have no much time...
i wish tat whenever u face something i will beside u...
but i din....
i wish i can have more time to be with u...
but i have alot thing to do...
i go out yam cha with friends i also dun feel wan go... but they say if i din go next time dun call them out...
bi.... i really wish that i can have alot of time be with u...
nowadays because my exam.... everytime i feel i will fail cause i din study...
now i start study make dou we both meet less...
last few week when i say i want study... bi say to me.. i must study and no time acc u also nvm.. and i really feel i wan focus on study... when i focus on study bi say bi wish to have longer time with me...
i really dunno wat to do...
but i really wish that i have time also..
my time like no enough to use...
and make me feel stress like no time any more...
bi.. sry that i cant acc u longer... but after exam... i feel it wont be happen d...
bi... love u always...
and i really hope i have more time in study and acc u...
bi... and also thanks for bi support ... muacks...

To my Lovely Bi

2010-10-25T09:47:00.000-07:00

Already long time din touch this blog le....
but dunno why... today feel wan use it....
dunno why u will think that bi...
i really hope that u dun think that any more.... casue i dun like u think tat also...
when u say u fan our relationship...
it means for me that we both couple make u fan alot of thing....
so it make me feel unhapi...
i knw i ignore u for no time accompany u... but i also dun wan it happen de...
cause alot of thing come to me...
u knw bi... sometimes when i study until very stress and i cry for that i feel that i wan suicide ... cause i feel like my life full of stress... wan exam if fail d wan resit... and alot of thing come to me....
but i dun wan u worry bout me so i din tell jus hear wat u tell me to study better...
and all thing i did de not i wan de... cause i really dun like thie courses... but i force to study... nvm la..
bi say u fan many,...
but me more fan and stress... if i fail in exam.. i nid pay rm2000++ to retake again...
bi....
i hope that u no nid fan me n u de thing.... cause everything will be alright...
and ntg will happen...
bi..
love u always...
muacks...

To my Lovely bi...

2010-08-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

Again.. i did something wrong to u..
and fa pi qi on u...
i feel bad cause i always treat u like this...
bi... sry for all the things... and dun think that i jus will spend my time wit friends...
u knw ma bi.. i d have few month din meet them already.. even they ask me go yam cha i also say dun wan...
jus today they ask me so i ask u... u jus answer go la..
and say dont understand me..
when i saw that msg.. my heart pain cause u say dont understand me...
bt me ntg d la nw... cause alot of ppl think that i jus will spent time wit friend but not bf...
bt i'm not... i will use the time accompany u and even when u off my friend call me out or like my student ask me to teach them i also tell them that tuesday i not free...
bt dont put inside ur heart anymore k...
i ntg la...
BI... I LOVE U...

I'm so sorry to U

2010-07-19T08:18:00.000-07:00

i feel i'm useless...
because whenever u unhapi or moody i did ntg to u...
i cant cheer u up....
n i will make it more worse....
i feel so sry to u that i cant be a gd gf to u...
bt i will try it...
i hope everyday u could smile n no more moody...
whenever ur working thing or other also wont make u moody...
bt i knw it cant...
dunno y... i feel myself cant be a better gf... cause everytime jus u will make me happy back n i cant...
haiz...
did u still remember tat day i gt something to say wit u... bt i din tell the truth... n u keep on asking me...bt atlast i din tell the truth...
actually...i wan to tell u that thanks bi always be with me...
however we did nt meet each other much... bt we knw that we love each other...
n i knw that gt a period that we feel our relationship getting far from the past..
bt we can slove it.. until nw our relationship is better than b4..
n i'm hapi to be wit u.. cause whenever i'm moody or wat.. u will be with me n be my listener n let me tell out all the thing...
bt when bi moody n tell out the thing i will moody n wan argue wit u... i'm so sry...
i feel that i nt that gd to u...
sometimes when i think about that i will feel unhapi bt i did nt tell u.. cause i knw that whenever i moody or unhapi u will same wit me n will leave ur job to a side n think the way to make me hapi...
y always jus u can did to me bt i cant...
i feel so n so sry to bi...
BI... i'm so sry to u n that day i wan to tell is I LOVE U ALWAYS... n nt jus a moment... is ALWAYS will think about we both together memories... i'm hapi to c that u can did ur promise... bt bi u did too much for me d...
i dunno how to thanks u n hw to do something to make u hapi when u moody...
jus like today...
BI... LOVE U N MISS U ALWAYS... MUACKS...

Lovely Bi...

moody bt be happy bac

2010-04-25T10:06:00.000-07:00

today really is moody... cause argue wit my sis...
n also tired too... cause go for trip...
bt my bi knw tat me moody... he will worried n tam me bac...
thanks bi...
jus nw u ask me tat who is the person important for me...n y so important...
nw i tel my bi tat..
the person that improtant for me is Kelvin Lee...
y he so important for me is because...he the only one make me change...
when i feel he is important for me is when we meet...
y i will say tat...however we nt at a better place meet up.. bt he make me feel tat important...
because if nt that day i wont knw him...
u ask me y that day already feel important...
i will say tat... if nt that day we wont meet up n we wont knw each other...
n after i knw u... i have change alot... i feel together wit u happy than the past...
yaya... i always cal u wait.. because i dun wan to hurt u... i scare tat something will hurt u...
so i will cal u wait...
i feel sry to u too.. cause wan u to wait for me...
bt i feel touching tat wat u have done to me... thanks my bi...
n i happy to have u be with me... cause whenever i moody, unhappy or other u will always think something to make me smile back...
sometimes i feel tat myself useless because whenever u have something happen i cant help u n cant make u feel relax...
when u fan something i cant help u to solve it... i feel i'm useless...
bt i will try to make u happy.. bt cant help u i feel sry bi...
bi... thanks for all the thing that u did to me... and u promise me many thing u will did it... i really thanks tat... cause many ppl promise me bt in the end they cant did it... i really very happy that i will meet up with u... n knw u...
bi... i hope tat u will always be happy...
whenever u have something happen dont like push me away.. like dont tell me 1st, after settle the thing onli tell me, or call me dont worried n no need tam u ...
cause i hope tat i can make u feel better... i jus feel tat i cant help u solve the problem bt i still can make u happy...
bi... wish u happy always n miss u always.... muacks

worried someone

2010-04-23T09:24:00.000-07:00

nw i worried bout someone important for me...
i dun wan he unhappy anymore...
whenever he gt anything haven i wish to be wit him and help him...
hwever i cant help him... i jus wan him to be happy...
bi... when u have anything happen.. i will always be wit u n help u...
i will try to make u hapi...
relax... dun be stress... everything will over... k...
muacks...

To my bi..

2010-04-18T06:52:00.000-07:00

bi... whenever u unhappy or something happen...
i will always be with u n will listen what happen wit u...
n i will try to make u happy always...
i dun wan u always jus will tam me when u are nt in mood too...
ya... i 'm happy that u will tam me.. bt i dun wan be selfish too..
i should do it to u too...
bt i really happy tat u will tell me wat happen...
hwever u unhappy...
i will be there for u...
bi wish u happy always.... muacks...

happy day

2010-04-17T08:34:00.000-07:00

i'm happy from the moment tat i knew u....
thanks for my bi... haha...
bi... thanks alot.. cause u make me change...
after i knew u i have been happy alot then the past...
thanks... n miss u....

tired days

2010-03-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

i'm so tired for the few days... cause the clubbing night, ching ming n plus yesterday..
clubbing night i did nt sleep n drunk also... TT...
ching ming night i sleep 1 to 2 hour then wake up.. then after ching ming i wnt to have breakfast with grandpa. n this day my grandpa was so happy cause previous days when my grandpa want go for breakfast n my uncle cal us we wont go to have breakfast with him. cause all doing pig.. bt that day we 7 grandchildren accompany him went to have breakfast together n so noisy in the restaurant from the way go to the restaurant talk non stop n at restaurant also. when back to hsu also talk non stop n laught non stop... really is a great day for me n my grandpa was so happy. n that day i only sleep 7 hours.. yesterday dunno y... cant sleep... n chat with someone until 4 then wake up at 7 something... wah.. dame tired...

finally.. today finish my FIA d..

2010-03-05T00:12:00.000-08:00

wow... i think all my friends that happy today cause no more book, no more exam.. jus relax..
haha...
me too...
i very happy tat finish this courses but i feel i miss the time when we all together.. which is the sem 1...
but now so fast d sem 3... time pass fast...
today is my last day in sunway college le..
however i dont like being at here.. but i still mis the memories that had in here...

jus now my friend sat my car n all sing" peng you" together.. wow.. feel like crying...
haha...
haiz... also last day see someone d...
hohoho...
TT.. that a night gonna be a good night...
also a good day....
jus now go eat snowflake.. wow.. is nice...

tmr is the final day d..

2010-03-04T06:37:00.000-08:00

i still will miss someone that in my heart...
i dunno y he will become like tat...
we did nt have talk any more...
dunno y...
i always have this feeling that want to talk n play with him..
bt in the end i get is ntg... i jus knw he has talk n chat with my friends.. bt me??
no.. event others is doing wat he also will chat..
bt me?? also ntg..
i know him longer than my firends.. but y he jus talk with them n not talk wit me....
tmr start.. i have been free for all the days..
i will find the way tat forget all bout this...
about u n him...
finally.. i jus give myself a reason... however u become how... i jus will ask... n care.. i wont do other any more...
n however how i also wont put any feeling in it..thanks...

wow.. have been 6 year

2010-03-01T18:39:00.000-08:00

dunno when start.. i have fall in love with u...
until now if i din guess wrong is about 6 years d...
bt now on i trying to give up for this relationship..
i feel that if i continue to wait for the answer, u also wont give me any answer...
so i'm trying to leave u n trying to take back my heart...
any where thanks for u...
because in this 6 years i know wat is love and know the feeling that waiting someone...
much of ppl ask me to give up... bt i dun wan hear..
now is the time for me already...
i was so happy that u will become my best friends..
in MSN u will find me to chat and sometimes when i unhappy u will say something to me.. thanks for u said to me that being with me is very happy...
actually dunno y... being with all of my friends they also say happy that know me...
is time to say goodbye to my dear lover.. is time to say hi to my dear best friend...
haha...
finally i have made a decision... no more waiting, no more crying...
i think when u back that time, i can have a good bf that can let u c...
cause u always ask me where my bf.. bt i always say no.. the reason that i say no is because of u....
However is very hard to forget n give up.. bt i wan to try it...
if not my life will jus onli u...
so i need to be dare to do it..
the last i want to say with u , i love u in the 6 years is real, n i will always be there for u.. when u unhappy can find me too... when i knw that u hav gf d i was so hurt but i know i cant say any thing.. when u say u have 3 or 4 gf, i jus feel that u should nt do that .. it will hurt others...
because of u i will think negative thing, but now wont any more...
thanks my dear.. wish u happy forever...

Time to say bye wit my college friends

2010-03-01T18:34:00.000-08:00

wow... is have been about 1 year d which i study in sunway...
after this fri 5/3/2010 is time that we will separate again...
is sad for all of us.. because we have been know each other about 1 year.
on 16/3/2010.. hope all of us wont cry when the graduation is going... haha...
bt how we can swear that we wont cry leh...
from secondary to college.. i know u guys... bt now going to change again...
after this Foundation i think all of us will hard to meet up...
bt i still will always contact with u guys...
miss u guys and love u guys...
wish u guys dream come true... happy...

today feel wanna write something in my heart

2010-01-26T07:20:00.000-08:00

i have been long time did not touch blog any more... in this year 2010... i have an unhappy begin.. but i hope in the following day i will get happy back.. because i have lost my pendrive.. in the pendrives there have many photo.. and the photo is my happy memories.. but now i know it wont come back to me any more.. ya.. my friends say it correct.. those memories is on the mind... so it wont be lost... but dunno y... i so scare that the memories i will forget... i scare one day i have forget all the thing that i have b4... i hope that the person who took my pendrive can return to me.. but unfortunally.. it wont happen... i miss it so much.. because every time when i open i sure will look at those photo that i have... because those photo is from my secondary sch till now... but now i know that it wont back to me.. so i will try to get another memories to take back.. but i know however take back also wont be the same as the photo... but now... i have been change alot...
i feel that i wont think any thing any more... like in the past i always think that i miss him or love him.. or feel hurt n others,.. but now i wont feel that any more... it is i forget him d.. or it is i have give up in thie relationship.... in the other way... i have been happy because of my family.... i went to malacca with my family.. in the few day i really happy... eat, eat, eat, and then shop shop shop.. haha.. is fun... however jus 2 days...
other than that, i have been close with my sister friends rather than my own friends..i think is because of in last year christmas eve we go club together n go penang together... we feel so enjoy in the days that we go for trip...

jus past my 17 now become 18...

2009-11-06T09:35:00.001-08:00

i very happy that my dearest friends celebrate with me... this time i knew many new friends too..
on 2nd nov my dears all celebrate with me... n my dear da jie ( mee gee ) also got go.. actually i dunno they celebrate with me cause they just say wan discuss my birthday wan go where... n when i reach there i sit n chat with mee gee n jun keat... then my cousin n my dear 3rd jie go fetch my dear kah sing... then they go buy cake.. n when they take the cake come in to the place that i sit i so suprise.. n i so happy... n my dears jia hui n tuck poh also come n celebrate with me... love you guys my lovely dears all...

on 3rd nov... my mum say 4th wanna celebrate with me n i tell my mum that my others friends wan celebrate with me.. then i say change to today.. then my mum call the maid keep the food that wan cook.. then we go out n eat for dinner.. we go zhong wah n eat.. wah.. so nice the food.. ii eat so much.. all the " lala" i eat finish n fish also.. haha.. love my lovely famaily... muacks... n my aunty call me n say happy birthday to me too..love you..

on 4th of nov.. the real of my birthday.. haha... i receive many wish from my friends.. n thanks for u guys for the wishes... n in the afternoon i give my little cousin brother sleep cause he dun wan my sis to give him sleep n his mum went out d.. n i give him sleep n play with him.. after he sleep i start make up n bout 4 something my sis fetch me n my cousin go sunway. n we go shop awhile then go amp square... bout 7 :30pm all my dears come n some of others friends too....cause this day got 3 person birthday too... me, chee hen n tong ping... so they help us celebrate together..n also we not like sing k.. bout 9 something the sing k room like become clubbing ... we all get high n play till crazy.. haha.. n we drink much too...after that bout 3o++ people sing birthday song to us.. n i so happy... after that i need to back d.. n others friend like c us which mean me n my cousin.. n one of the boy say with me if want back must sing song 1st.. i laught say dun wan la.. haha... then we took a photo.. like big family de photo.. all in the photo... haha..
then i back home online.. i still think that he will wish me.. n that day i jus waiting for his wish..
but can't get from him..i so disappointed to him... b4 my birthday he still tell me he remember my birthday.. but on my birthday that day i did not get any thing... wish also din get it... i so sad bout this.. i cant imagine why he tell me he remember n he did not do any thing to me.. the whole day i waiting for his wish n in the mid night of 3rd of nov i saw he online but also din wish too... n i still think he will wish me so i online till 3 something.. but i cant get any thing.. is ok.. nvm..

but nvm.. may be he dun wan wish me or not free... however i very happy that my birthday was so great... thanks for my lovely family n my lovely dear friends..
love my family n friend n 7 sisterssss...

haha.. The cake not nice...

2009-10-27T09:40:00.000-07:00

haha.. the cake is not nice.. but the taste is nice...

because this is the 1st time i bake the cake...

after learn to bake the cake n i bake...

haha

The cake... haha... not nice leh...

Wish him happy birthday...

friends forever.....

haha...

many thing to write...

2009-10-27T09:35:00.000-07:00

haha.. but i have many thing to say... but dunno wan tell who also...
i very happy but dunno y....
and nowadays i learn baking...
n always bake...
haha...
may be feel like to bake...
i hope i can learn more n more ..
when he back i can make for him...
he birthday however i cant celebrate with him...
but i bake a cake for him...
n take photo n send to him..
but he cant eat the cake also..
but he say he very happy...
however my friends say me crazy.. but i din not feel i regret...haha...

Sunway Lagoon 8 of July 2009

2009-08-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

This day is our happy and relax day...

because i went to Sunway Lagoon with my college friends..

Besides that, the reason that we so relax is we finish our final exam in semester 1...

haha...

so miss that day...hope can go again with them...

however jus we few but we play till crazy...

After our water war... we play all amusement park and water park...

Haha.. i took for them... haha.. so nice....my dears all...

wahahah.. we finish bath then go take photo... haha... miss u...

haha... we so happy that day....

wahahah... the worker know us.. cause we pls the 360 turning twice....haha

haha.. the worker so naughty... haha... peace.... muacks

me and my dear Jessica... miss her...

Me and my dear Megan.. so miss her... long time din c her d...

me and dear li voon... haha.... so happy

me and dear Amelia... sweet

me and dear roveena..haha sha po...

we all CRAZY FAMILY...Haha

To my heart...

2009-07-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

He finally wanna come back..
but now.. i jus feel did not have feel with him le..
is this a good thing for me...
but i feel sad that he come back also no use le...
and i know that sometimes i will miss him and will think back all the memorise about him..
but i jus know that however how we wont be together any more..
So happy that he ( my friend) come back le..
haha...
wish him have a nice days...
and to my heart i will always miss our memorise.. and i wan to be hopeful to face the problem that i face now..
my colleg, my future, my friend, and my love...
i have no stress any more.. cause i wan to be relax in this two week..
because becasue i got holiday le..
wahahaha

To The King Of POP

2009-07-08T07:44:00.000-07:00

However you are not here any more.. but we will love you and miss you... However you are not with us.. but your song will never end.. your song will in our mind forever and ever and ever...and your song will tell us that we are the world...
However your children not with you... but they will always miss you and love you.. and for your children they will happy to have you become their daddy...because you are the best daddy...
children you all must happy to have this daddy...however he is not with you all but you all must live in the peaceful life..because your daddy will always beside you all and always be with you all...and he will try to protect you all...
King of pop.. wish you live in the nice and peaceful paradise...we love you and we will always miss you...
You are not alone... because we will always remember you...

Our 5 years friendship

2009-05-03T22:08:00.000-07:00

that day is our gathering...

haha.. so funny.. happy memories...

haha.. so funny... but this moment i think wont be back any more... me and u...

haha.. when we make our majalah... and we ponteng in here...

KTAR Trip...it was fun

haha... still remember this memories... it was so sweet for me...

this day was the 1st time i go clubbing... me and u... i still remember it...

All of us... jun keat, me, ai ling, san san, u and tai xi...

14 of march.. me and u...this day was so happy.. cause san san birthday...and our friendship still there...

my all dear sisters... san san ,u and me....

our sch life... me, kah sing and sarah( 5 years friendship)...

Our friendship... still got alot of photo...

but i have no time to upload...

thanks for u being my my dear friends so long.. and accompany me...

thanks for u...

bye.. FRIENDSHIP FOREVER AND 7 SISITERS FOREVER

this few day was so painful ... and also i have lost my bestfriend..

2009-05-03T08:13:00.000-07:00

i get sick already...
in the 1/5 midnight...i go into sunway hospital and into the emergency wad...
because my throat was so pain.,.. and i can't talk and sleep..
and 2/5.. this day was so painful for me...
i going to see two doctor...
one is skin and the other is throat doctor...
the 1st... i see skin doctor..
cause my body all red dot..
and the doctor say that is chicken pox..
then i ask the doctor.. not onli will come out once..
the doctor say that everybody not same.. some will come out twice...
after that i go to sunway hospital again to see the throat doctor again...
the doctor use a tube strick into my nose till my throat to see what happen with my throat..
wah.,. that time is so painful for me..
really pain...

Besides this... i have lost my 5YEARS FRIENDSHIP...
i can't imagine the ppl how to broke our friendship..
i need to thanks to him..that he make me so hate him already..
and he make us feel so hurt and painful...
the feel that lost a best friend is so painful...
however she want to trust who i already wont care..
if she wan talk bout me what i also wont care any more already...
yaya..
i have lie her once...
but i really no heart to lie her..
cause i scare her anrgy ...
and i wont lie her any more after that 14/2
because i have promise my friend (kah sing) and her too..
cause (k s) say that we already become so many years friends why still want lie...
and i hear she say... and i dun dare to lie her any more..
cause i scare lost a best friends...and also i feel so sry with her...
and i din say any bad thing to the fucker...
cause in the 1st they are not friends...
because i know that she dun like him... cause he always say her...
and y should i tell the bad thing to the one that she dun like and i hate him too...
and i know that if want say the bad thing y i dun wan tell (k s) or others that close to her...
however also..
i know she wont trust me.. cause she will feel i lie her...
any where,... i know y she will trust him 1st..
i din blame on her...
and i will hate the fucker...
and i need to tell her that sorry that i lie her on 14/2...
however i already say once to her... but i really feel sry.....
ya...
that day yam cha... when (Mee Gee) ask me why u din come.. and i jus say ur mum dun let u drive so late..
and the boy who say want fetch u... i jus smile at him.. cause i know that he jus joke...
and i got tell mee gee that find one day we jus call all the girls out onli..
but now..
i think wont have this chance already..
cause we already nothing to say...
but i need to do is..
in the 1st.. i need to say sry to u.. cause that time i no heart to lie u...
the 2nd is... i need to thanks u... cause u begin my bestfriend so many years.. and accompany me when i face unhappy thing...
any where... u trust who also nvm.. if u feel u will happy then ok la...
and also..
happy to know u... and ur birthday present i will give u.. but not like u say the present is hurt...
any where..
i jus know that FRIENDSHIP FOREVER AND 7SISTERS FOREVER...
however u want to contact with him i also wont care le..
so wish u happy...
Bye my lovely friends and my lovely sister...

Suddenly feel unhappy.. my heart so pain too..

2009-04-05T09:39:00.001-07:00

may be i think back all the past...
i can't forget it...
sunddenly feel very unhappy and feel my heart so pain..
pain until i can't breath too..
y all ppl can together with their lover so happy..
but me not the one who feel happy..
my lover already change himself so much any more..
my heart sunddenly feel so miss him...
hope that when i was unhappy or when i need him that time he can hug me ..
but that just a dream..
that is not true..
i feel want cry... i so miss him..

when i start my college life..
i already feel i far from him and also my all dearest friends..
until now..
my friends already least chat with me..
they have their new friends...
so that i going to lost many things..
may be i think too much..
but i already no choice
i so miss them..
nowadays.. i just all the thing need to do de in my timetable..
however the time is free..
i still will make myself busy...
so i wont think so much..
but just now.. when i watch movie dunno y suddenly a feel come to me.. and tell me i so miss someone who far from me...

i so hope that he can always hug me..
and give some love to me..
but that is dream..
so hope he happy and all my dearest friends too..
take care..

erm...

2009-04-03T00:22:00.003-07:00

i so miss everyone...
especially is him...
wah.. already long time din see him...
when he go until now...
i'm start my college live too..
however is bored.. but sometimes will feel happy when think untill all of my frieds..
ya ya..
many ppl say that when start college life will miss secondary school life...
yaya.. i prefer the answer..
last time i also think that...
may be at college life is easy and happy..
but not also..
cause need to more and more hardworking..
and need to do presentation..
however dun dare to do but also must do...
so miss u guys..
and i so wish aday we can meet up all of us..
in college life.. i knew many new friends..
but i dun even same class with them becuase all subject we all not the same class.. just may be few subject with together onli..
so..
college life is hard to past...
haiz...
i so so so miss him also...
when sleep will force myself to think back his face..
cause long time din c him.. already dunno he change till how le..
dunno y.. always when close eyes can't imagine his face..
i so scare that i forget him...
but when think back the memories that me and him..
i can see back his face...
so happy to think back him ...
but he dunno that i so miss him also..
and he wont care but i happy or not.. and also he wont care bout that any more...

hahaha...

2009-03-30T08:41:00.001-07:00

wah.. i finish my eassy d le..
so so so happy a..
just unhappy is my melaka trip finish d... i so miss my drinks...
haha
if next time got holiday call my parents bring me go again with my sis and cousin..
hahaha.
so enjoy in this trip...
haha...
and i finally finish my two eassy d...
hehe...

haha... so tired.. but very happy..

2009-03-26T22:59:00.001-07:00

haha.. so happy la...
the reason that i so happy today is.. i settle all my Lcci cert de thing..
and today after my class i go to registry and i saw a boy who very very handsome ..
haha..
i can know that he is a good guys... haha
so so so happy...
however i dunno him.. but dunno y when after see him i be so happy...
i hope one of the day he will be my dear..
wahahah...
but i just joke la..
cause i can't forget my lover also..

start sch d...

2009-03-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

haiz... start sch d...
dunno y feel different like last time..
may be is a new life ...and got some scare de feel....

yesterday... 20th of march...
he ask me i start sch d..
and chat with him till happy...
haha...
can do back friend with him i d very happy...

now i so tried.. cause my timetable whole week full d...
haiz..
so sad sad

today i very angry..

2009-03-11T06:23:00.000-07:00

i very angry now.... because today my cousin bf call us to go pasar malam at cheras..
then my cousin call me fast and fast give answer..
then i say ok la... cause we also long time din go out at night d... i think my mum sure give...]
but when we on the way back home... i call my mum... my mum say can't , say far and rain and wat wat wat..then i tell my cousin can't la...
then she angry... and she quarrel with her bf...
then she blame me say y i so fast say ok and say not yet ask say ok...
then i very angry lo... is she call me faster answer...
always also like that...
every time i ask my mum... and when we go and late back... get scold de onli me...
not her...
i very angry and angry...
and i dun like to be so hai d...
next time she ask me wat i also wont answer d...
cause answer also wrong y wan answer...

Haha... dunno y feel unhappy...

2009-03-06T03:01:00.000-08:00

Dunno wat to do any more...
like no idea for my life...
wanna start my college life d...
feel so scare...
may be no last time de fren study together d...
feel like not same...
today i go sunway with my dear little cousin bro...
he so cute... call me buy shirt for him and buy bear...
and i buy shirt and many bear for him...
and he so happy...
haha...

4th of march...
i go sunway also..
that day i go with my sis and suddenly my god bro call me...
then he ask me where r me now..
i tell him i st sunway.. then he come sunway... and walk together and with his fren...
and both of them make me and my sis laught whole day...
until we back we go yam cha near my house...
that time me, my cousin and my sis laught cause both or them...
haha...
dunno y... that day is happy.., but in my heart dunno wat feeling...
haha..
may be i crazy d..
dunno wat is feeling d...

love

2009-03-02T09:23:00.000-08:00

Many ppl think that love can play...
But when love is start..
No one can stop it...
Love is like that...
Love is like a games...
When the games is start...
We need to ready the feeling that the games will game over...
And dun let the love over...
Over d... forever also wont come back any more...
We should happy when we get a lover...
And try to let our lover happy...
And we can together with our lover...
We should happy..
Because in this world..
Much of people...
We can together with lover is very hard thing...
So we need to happy....

Wish all people can be happy when it get love..
and dun let love gone...
and be happy together with lover..
and try to remember some happy memory..
and also can take some photo when we feel that is happy memory ...
if not when something happen...
did not have any thing to remind u with the happy memory...

suddenly miss him...

2009-03-02T09:14:00.000-08:00

i can't sleep..
dunno y...
my heart like very miss him..
and hope to c him...
but i know this is impossible..
haha...
i so crazy...
dunno wat he doing now leh...
dunno he boring or not leh...
i always will think such thing...
i very scare he boring..
i know he wont boring de...
cause at there so much of liang lui...
he sure will happy...
haha..
i still so worry bout him...
but i dunno y... hope to c him now...
haiz...
i hope the happy feel come back with me when together with him..
i hope he always say something to me..
i hope when he unhappy ...
he will tell me.. and i will support him.. and give him some care..
haiz...
i know it wont come true..
cause he wont say to me d...
he will say with someone...
may be is his lover may be is his gf...
i'm not his lover any more and also not his gf any more...

always i laught.. but it is not the true...
i just act like happy..
when at msn.. i always write haha... but in my heart.. it can't laught out...
dunno y...
when i sit alone i will very scare and very miss him...
when i hear some song.. and think bout him.. i will cry...
haha.... dunno when i can forget such thing...

wah...

2009-02-28T11:40:00.000-08:00

today when i open friendster... i did not see his comment...
jus now i open i jus know he night got online..
haha....
he got reply my comment..
but any where.. he already arrive...
me also no need so worry...
haha
he got a new life at there le...
haha...
i wish him happy always....

My heart was so pain...

2009-02-26T06:49:00.001-08:00

tomorrow he going to taiwan le...
but i can't face to face to say good bye...
when we meet...
already ntg to chat le...
but i still keep on ask something..
nvm...
actually i dun wan so early back...
but all my friend wanna back le..
so i jus can follow...
when back i wan say good bye to him...
but he listen hp... and dunno walk to where le...
i so sad...
can't face to face say with him...
and from tomorrow i can't see him le..
he d going to taiwan tomorrow...
wat also can't do le..
jus can write at here and say good bye to him...

my dear lover....
good bye and take good care o...
dun make until yourself sick o...
and dun also sleep so late o...
when come back dun forget all our friend o...
cause all our friend will wait u back....
and when any unhappy thing happen u can think about all ur best friend...
and think back all happy de thing...
or u can online and find me chat or others also ok a...
dun keep in your heart and make until yourself sad...
however when u need some support..
i will always support...
and i will always pray that you have a good health...
and happy always...ntg happen...
and faster come back and meet together again with our friend...
bye my dear.. miss u.. and still loving u....muacks...

take care...

wah.. still got few days..

2009-02-24T03:54:00.000-08:00

Is time to say good bye to him...
and is time to wait or give up...
i dunno i will choose which...
however i jus will know i love a person as long as i could...
and also as long as i can help or support him when he need help...

wah... after my thailand trip.. i feel i become happy more...
may be this trip can give me some happiness...
and in this trip my family and friend also can together ...
when my family and their friend play that time... play until crazy..
like play agua that time.. all like crazy and hamsap lou...
haha...
but jus got them play we jus can laught..
haha....
is the nice and happy trip...

is time to say bye to my dear lover le...
bye my dear...
wish u happy at there..
and take good care...
still love u...

very very unhappy

2009-02-07T20:52:00.000-08:00

yesterday his house got party..
when i go there i feel unhappy...
dunno y...
may be still got 19 days he wanna go le...
when i at there i din talk with him or others..
actually i think i should give up...
but i can't do..
cause he is the most important ppl in my hear...
i miss him so much and love him so much...

Feel unhappy

2009-01-19T22:49:00.000-08:00

nowadays i have been normal with the feel of lonely and missing...
i very miss someone but i din tell him...
the feel everyday also stay with me...
dunno y.. i still wan be stupid... still miss him...
that day my fren told me that my lover wanna go oversea already...
but i can't do any thing also..
they say wan celebrate with him...
but i can't go...
i very useless... he wanna go oversea already i wat also can't do for him...
just wish him happy forever...

if the day that he want go oversea.. and i hope to say with him all my heart wan say de thing....
but i know that this is impossible...
haiz...
i know that i will regreat one day...
i really very love him... from form 3 till now...
but wat to do...
i jus will wait...
cause after 2 years he will back and after 3 years i won't at malaysia already...
may be i already at australia d...
may be i will give up half way... but i think i can't do tat...
so sry...

Nowadays

2009-01-07T10:12:00.000-08:00

Wat is love...
can someone tell me...
i already can't afford any more...
feel no energy to afford the pain and the hurt...
Nowadays.. everynight when i'm alone.. i will think back all the thing..
it make me so miss...
Am i regreat??
no... cause i know that love is blind... however he treat me what...
i will still support him and stand by his side....
when he need someone accompany him.. i will always be there for him...
Am i stupid??
many friends say that i'm the most stupid person in this world...
because i know that we won't together any more...
but i still give myself hopeless... and when see any cloths that nice... however also will buy for him...
What is the feeling of the love??
can someone tell me...
cause i dunno... and i already did not trust love any more...
actually i will always call all my friend to tresure their lover wish them together forever...
but when i face to my love problem.. i already no energy to afford and also no courage to trust love... cause i always get hurt...
and i need to say that dun give any promise to any one...
if in the end u din do it... it will make someone more hurt....
i already try hard to face my love problem... but i can't afford any more...
today i only know that i have been very very love him nowadays...
always will try to message him and give hope to myself that he will reply... however in the end he won't reply... i will give the reason is.. his phone out of credit....
Am i stupid...
actually i already try hard to tresure the love... but why... why want like that treat me...
and also... i feel that he already have a new lover... but i still wanna buy present for him...
many ppl feel that i'm stupid...
but i just wan to give him the best thing and hope that he won't forget me...
and that day... when my friend and me at car.. i tell her that i d very hard... and i cry... my friend scold me that why i wan so stupid,,,, and my friend because see me so hard... she also feel wan cry...
actually.. i hope to tell all my friend that... wish them happy forever...
and hope them dun like me....
i already can't out of this love....
and i can't be happy nowadays.... may be will unhappy forever?? may be won't..
but i know that however happy also got a limit....
cause he going to leave me....
may be he happy...
but i hope to tell him...
i still love him...
however i still will wait..
when he come back .. however he got gf... i still will wait...
take care my dear lover...
love u so much .. i hope that i can be stupid forever..
and however u won't together with me... i will always support u...
my dear lover...
if one day u feel unhappy i will always be with you...
if one day u feel want cry... come and find me... may be i will cry together with u.. and hug u..
if one day u feel regreat for something... come and find me dear... i will always support u...
if one day u sunddenly want tell me something... u can call me .. and i will chat with u...
if one day u can't afford any pain and hurt... jus tell me... and i can afford ur pain and hurt... and just want u be happy and won't pain so much...
if one day u argue with ur gf... and u want find someone chat... u can find me... i will help u... and i will tell ur gf... u are the good bf...
dear... however u have any problem.. u can tell me.. i will listen u... and support u...
dear.. however u hurt me.. but can together with u is the best and happy thing in my life...
my dear lover... i wish that u can be happy forever ..
if u unhappy and wan to exchange i will exchange that give u happy and i get unhappy...
i hope to give u the best thing.. but i dunno when i can't afford already...
i really scare that when u unhappy that time i become weak and fall and dunno how to make u happy...
now i still can afford...
please my dear lover... promise me that u will happy forever...
however also no need care me hurt/ pain/ unhappy.... just u happy and u can get ur lover...
i already nothing...
if want to exchange any thing from me to make u happy... i will exchange...
and please all the girls... dun hurt my dear... if i know i will hate her till very bad...
My dear lover... this is the last word that i want tell u...
My dear lover, I will always LOVE U and I will LOVE U FOREVER...
And i very miss u.... really... miss the time when together with u too... really miss...
Dear dear.. i won't blame u that u hurt me and won't blame u that promise me something then u can't do... cause not ur wrong... may be u wan to change a better one...
Thanks dear... u let me learn something...
However also wish u happy... take care... i will always be there for u... be HAPPY...

Already is too late for me.. many ppl call me to tell him that i love him...
But i know that he won't together with me any more..
However i do how many thing...
so i jus wish that i can be friend with him... however i still love him...
Can't do couple.. but can do friend..
but this friend is not the normal to the other..
and i will always support this friend and stand by his side...
so Friendship Forever...

Today i get my pay

2009-01-01T08:18:00.000-08:00

Today is the 1st time i get my pay.... i did not work b4.. so i very happy that get this pay...
but i very miss him... i hope to chat with him and share my happiness....
i really love him... i hope to face to face and say happy new year with him..
better than now... i message him and tell him he also din reply....
it make me so hurt,...
dunno y ... every time i will very very miss him... and will think all the memory...
and some time will buy some present for him...
when i c any shop who have the cloths that he like i will buy ..
however how expensive,..
i just hope that he can chat with me like friend...
i also hope to chat with him b4 he goes...
hope this 2009 he will happy always,,,
however i unhappy also nevermind...
thanks for him give me happiness in 2007 and 2008...
and thanks for him give me happiness..
still love him and miss him..
however i can't face to face say happy new year to him...
i will wish him happy new year in my heart and wish that he will happy always...
thanks my lover,,, happy new year...

24 of Dis.... count down for chrismas

2008-12-25T19:35:00.000-08:00

This day all my friend go bar celona.... we play till very high...
that time when we drink wine ...we already very high then we dance and play...
after that i already blur... so i simply take a cup of the wine and drink... sarah just scold me and call all my friend dun let me take and drink... and i blur... then i like wan fall.. my friend (tai xi)... he blur already then he sleep on the table... then i suddenly fall and sleep at his hand.. then all my friend bring me and him go out.. but we can't go... cause my friend fall then i call my two friend hold my friend.... then i also fall to my friend back... then they bring me and him go toilet...
after tat me and my friend fall down out side the toilet.. then sarah wanna bring me go wash face then kok jun brother dun let cause i very blur.. then i say tat i wan wash... so they bring me and tai xi go wash face..
after wash face.... they bring we both go out and sit out side the bar celona..then tai xi sleep at tupai legs... then i sleep at sarah legs.. then my cousin sleep at chee wai legs...when i stand up again.. kok jun bro wanna call sarah bring me go toilet and wash face.. then i say dun wan .. then kok jun bro take a bottle of coca cola and let me drink..
then chee wai friend all also blur... the boy who no blur bring the ppl that blur one and sleep at out side...
then jus the only girl so blur is me.. all ppl pull me.... cause i wanna go in to bar celona.... and drink again..,.. sarah pull me and i fall then i sleep again then i satnd up again and say to poh teng and ah bing cousin that i wanna go in drink...then they lie me...., then tupai pull me.,.. and i wan run to bar celona,.. he dun let and jus pull me... then i cry tat i wanna again... they lie me say tat beer is coming...then ah bing also pull me.,... then when the car come... they bring me go in to the car... then when they close the door i open and run out then they lock the door...then we go chee wai house... then when i reach chee wai house i already ok a bit... then tai xi vomit... then after tat they come back,,, all sleep at out side then chee wai bring the water and wanna let them wash...then ah bing and chee wai help then wash d... then tupai say tat like got ppl put some thing in side the cup.. then he blur d..
and he go out tat time he fall.. then i help him wash face,,... then he walk in to house and sleep..
then i call chee wai make milo for them.. and i help... then i call them drink...
this is the day tat i so blur.. and so unhappy... i dunno wat thing make me so unhappy...
ithis is the memory tat i have and i wont forget any more...
so wish to return to this day... miss all the memory...

Am i is a good girl...

2008-12-16T07:48:00.000-08:00

I have been change so much...
because want to forget him... i take all the time for working and now i make until myself sick already...
and now i change become drink beer and something la..
haiz..
i wanna know tat he still love me?? he still care me?? he still will chat with me??
every time i will think all bout this... when i sleep tat time i will cry and think and hear some song tat can say out my feel...
i think i been more love him then last time...
so how... can some one tell me should i forget him...
i think i also can't help myself d..
now i call my friend intro some friend for me..
but in the end i also still think tat he is the most good in my life...
thanks for him give me so much of hope and memory...
and thanks for him give me hope but in the end he hurt me...
thanks for him take away my happiness.... and thanks for him make until me think to do negative thing...

Think back all the memory..

2008-12-16T07:39:00.000-08:00

Today in my working there...
i make a photo album...
i see the photo... i was so miss last time...
when i together with him... how he treat me and so love me...
and he give me hope and make me happy...
and the only one photo just i print out and that is the latest photo tat my cousin help me take...
i put in my photo album... but i dunno who to write tat photo..
all when i see the photo i think so much bout me and his memory...
and he tell me all the tat make me so happy... but in the end he can't do it...
he is the only one make me feel together with him so happy and no need to think other any more...
i hope nowadays i can do as much as i can do tat chat with him...
but i know tat he wont reply any more...
i just hope tat i can chat with him like friend and play with him like last time...
so happy... all the happy thing already gone..
i so miss tat...
i so regreat tat y i can't get the longer time with him...
so miss him...
hope be friend with him...
wish him happy always...

Today suddenly feel wanna write

2008-12-12T09:18:00.000-08:00

Today when i back from work tat time i count the shop de money... lost le rm5...
i very scare tat... when i back i feel tat very unhappy... feel wan drink beer...
but din have the beer tat i wanna de...
then i back to home...
i suddenly open his blogger..
i see the post i very unhappy...
y i din early open and see..
if i early open and see... i will tell him tat my feel in my heart...
but d late le..
so sry for him....
i hope tat he can get a better one...
take care...

最后一句我爱你

2008-11-29T18:17:00.000-08:00

最后一句我爱你
在同一大楼里，
泡在书的天地。
在同一大楼里，
你我互相嬉戏。
在同一教室里，
你我必定相遇。
不到十厘米的距离，
你我相争第一。
中考即将来临，
你我同样努力。
考后的整个星期，
一定也很幸运。
在热闹的书店里，
你我不期而遇遇。
世界的天地，
那儿都有知己。
离别前最后一句，
我爱你！

Wanna Finish exam le..

2008-11-29T18:07:00.001-08:00

wanna finish exam le... i hope the last day exam i can find my wallet too...
if can't find it may be is be destined de..
i won't blame the god...
but if let me find my wallet i will keep it well...
the last day le...
and i wanna find job le..
i wan get income and wanna buy thing and wanna give my parents le..
i hope all of my friends won't gorget each other...
be the best,, take care all my friend..... love u all..

He won't reply de... i have a dream tat i found my wallet..

2008-11-29T17:58:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night we go eat crab... so i bring them go...
i saw he smoke and smoke non-stop....
i hope tat he stop smoke... but i think won't le...
ya... i still love him... but i can't do any thing....
yesterday when at puteri 12 there i drink bout 2 botle beer...
i hope i can blur and sleep well..
but after i wanna bed time,...
i can't sleep... and went i sleep i dream i find my wallet at sch....
and the 1st thing i do is... see inside the wallet got he give de thing or not...
but i think the wallet i can't find it any more...
i hopw and pray that i can find it...
God, pls let me find my wallet....
cause it important for me...
Thanks...
and when i before sleep... i message gim tat call him dun smoke le... and i tell im tat i jus wan be friend with him and chat like friend..
but in the end he also din reply...
i know tat he won't reply but i still want message him...
any where i hope be friend with him only...

Think back all the unhappy thing..

2008-11-28T04:31:00.000-08:00

Today i very tried... because yesterday i din even sleep well..
cause i feel very unhappy... cause my wallet lost le...
and many memory in the wallet... and my dairy key....
i hope to find back my wallet..
however my money lost le...
inside the wallet de thing i wan back...
i hope who take my wallet de give back me...
but i know won't de...
cause is a stupid thing..
when i saw my beg..
i think back my wallet...

Unhappy days..

2008-11-27T05:14:00.000-08:00

Today i my unhappy day... and when exam some one din go le...
i hope to see him/ her
when after exam i go and eat.. my walllet lost le...
i go back sch and find already no lo...
inside the wallet got something important for me... and i can't get other one le..
the one someone give me...
haiz...
it make my heart so hurt and i hope to get back my wallet...
and today i very very unhappy and i change le...
i change to be bad le..
may be many ppl dun like...but i can't help myself le..
sry...
thanks for u all..