Suddenly feel unhappy.. my heart so pain too..

may be i think back all the past...
i can't forget it...
sunddenly feel very unhappy and feel my heart so pain..
pain until i can't breath too..
y all ppl can together with their lover so happy..
but me not the one who feel happy..
my lover already change himself so much any more..
my heart sunddenly feel so miss him...
hope that when i was unhappy or when i need him that time he can hug me ..
but that just a dream..
that is not true..
i feel want cry... i so miss him..

when i start my college life..
i already feel i far from him and also my all dearest friends..
until now..
my friends already least chat with me..
they have their new friends...
so that i going to lost many things..
may be i think too much..
but i already no choice
i so miss them..
nowadays.. i just all the thing need to do de in my timetable..
however the time is free..
i still will make myself busy...
so i wont think so much..
but just now.. when i watch movie dunno y suddenly a feel come to me.. and tell me i so miss someone who far from me...

i so hope that he can always hug me..
and give some love to me..
but that is dream..
so hope he happy and all my dearest friends too..
take care..

erm...

i so miss everyone...
especially is him...
wah.. already long time din see him...
when he go until now...
i'm start my college live too..
however is bored.. but sometimes will feel happy when think untill all of my frieds..
ya ya..
many ppl say that when start college life will miss secondary school life...
yaya.. i prefer the answer..
last time i also think that...
may be at college life is easy and happy..
but not also..
cause need to more and more hardworking..
and need to do presentation..
however dun dare to do but also must do...
so miss u guys..
and i so wish aday we can meet up all of us..
in college life.. i knew many new friends..
but i dun even same class with them becuase all subject we all not the same class.. just may be few subject with together onli..
so..
college life is hard to past...
haiz...
i so so so miss him also...
when sleep will force myself to think back his face..
cause long time din c him.. already dunno he change till how le..
dunno y.. always when close eyes can't imagine his face..
i so scare that i forget him...
but when think back the memories that me and him..
i can see back his face...
so happy to think back him ...
but he dunno that i so miss him also..
and he wont care but i happy or not.. and also he wont care bout that any more...