i wish i could

I wish i could everyday accompany u....
but i knw i have no much time...
i wish tat whenever u face something i will beside u...
but i din....
i wish i can have more time to be with u...
but i have alot thing to do...
i go out yam cha with friends i also dun feel wan go... but they say if i din go next time dun call them out...
bi.... i really wish that i can have alot of time be with u...
nowadays because my exam.... everytime i feel i will fail cause i din study...
now i start study make dou we both meet less...
last few week when i say i want study... bi say to me.. i must study and no time acc u also nvm.. and i really feel i wan focus on study... when i focus on study bi say bi wish to have longer time with me...
i really dunno wat to do...
but i really wish that i have time also..
my time like no enough to use...
and make me feel stress like no time any more...
bi.. sry that i cant acc u longer... but after exam... i feel it wont be happen d...
bi... love u always...
and i really hope i have more time in study and acc u...
bi... and also thanks for bi support ... muacks...

To my Lovely Bi

Already long time din touch this blog le....
but dunno why... today feel wan use it....
dunno why u will think that bi...
i really hope that u dun think that any more.... casue i dun like u think tat also...
when u say u fan our relationship...
it means for me that we both couple make u fan alot of thing....
so it make me feel unhapi...
i knw i ignore u for no time accompany u... but i also dun wan it happen de...
cause alot of thing come to me...
u knw bi... sometimes when i study until very stress and i cry for that i feel that i wan suicide ... cause i feel like my life full of stress... wan exam if fail d wan resit... and alot of thing come to me....
but i dun wan u worry bout me so i din tell jus hear wat u tell me to study better...
and all thing i did de not i wan de... cause i really dun like thie courses... but i force to study... nvm la..
bi say u fan many,...
but me more fan and stress... if i fail in exam.. i nid pay rm2000++ to retake again...
bi....
i hope that u no nid fan me n u de thing.... cause everything will be alright...
and ntg will happen...
bi..
love u always...
muacks...

To my Lovely bi...

Again.. i did something wrong to u..
and fa pi qi on u...
i feel bad cause i always treat u like this...
bi... sry for all the things... and dun think that i jus will spend my time wit friends...
u knw ma bi.. i d have few month din meet them already.. even they ask me go yam cha i also say dun wan...
jus today they ask me so i ask u... u jus answer go la..
and say dont understand me..
when i saw that msg.. my heart pain cause u say dont understand me...
bt me ntg d la nw... cause alot of ppl think that i jus will spent time wit friend but not bf...
bt i'm not... i will use the time accompany u and even when u off my friend call me out or like my student ask me to teach them i also tell them that tuesday i not free...
bt dont put inside ur heart anymore k...
i ntg la...
BI... I LOVE U...

I'm so sorry to U

i feel i'm useless...
because whenever u unhapi or moody i did ntg to u...
i cant cheer u up....
n i will make it more worse....
i feel so sry to u that i cant be a gd gf to u...
bt i will try it...
i hope everyday u could smile n no more moody...
whenever ur working thing or other also wont make u moody...
bt i knw it cant...
dunno y... i feel myself cant be a better gf... cause everytime jus u will make me happy back n i cant...
haiz...
did u still remember tat day i gt something to say wit u... bt i din tell the truth... n u keep on asking me...bt atlast i din tell the truth...
actually...i wan to tell u that thanks bi always be with me...
however we did nt meet each other much... bt we knw that we love each other...
n i knw that gt a period that we feel our relationship getting far from the past..
bt we can slove it.. until nw our relationship is better than b4..
n i'm hapi to be wit u.. cause whenever i'm moody or wat.. u will be with me n be my listener n let me tell out all the thing...
bt when bi moody n tell out the thing i will moody n wan argue wit u... i'm so sry...
i feel that i nt that gd to u...
sometimes when i think about that i will feel unhapi bt i did nt tell u.. cause i knw that whenever i moody or unhapi u will same wit me n will leave ur job to a side n think the way to make me hapi...
y always jus u can did to me bt i cant...
i feel so n so sry to bi...
BI... i'm so sry to u n that day i wan to tell is I LOVE U ALWAYS... n nt jus a moment... is ALWAYS will think about we both together memories... i'm hapi to c that u can did ur promise... bt bi u did too much for me d...
i dunno how to thanks u n hw to do something to make u hapi when u moody...
jus like today...
BI... LOVE U N MISS U ALWAYS... MUACKS...

Lovely Bi...

moody bt be happy bac

today really is moody... cause argue wit my sis...
n also tired too... cause go for trip...
bt my bi knw tat me moody... he will worried n tam me bac...
thanks bi...
jus nw u ask me tat who is the person important for me...n y so important...
nw i tel my bi tat..
the person that improtant for me is Kelvin Lee...
y he so important for me is because...he the only one make me change...
when i feel he is important for me is when we meet...
y i will say tat...however we nt at a better place meet up.. bt he make me feel tat important...
because if nt that day i wont knw him...
u ask me y that day already feel important...
i will say tat... if nt that day we wont meet up n we wont knw each other...
n after i knw u... i have change alot... i feel together wit u happy than the past...
yaya... i always cal u wait.. because i dun wan to hurt u... i scare tat something will hurt u...
so i will cal u wait...
i feel sry to u too.. cause wan u to wait for me...
bt i feel touching tat wat u have done to me... thanks my bi...
n i happy to have u be with me... cause whenever i moody, unhappy or other u will always think something to make me smile back...
sometimes i feel tat myself useless because whenever u have something happen i cant help u n cant make u feel relax...
when u fan something i cant help u to solve it... i feel i'm useless...
bt i will try to make u happy.. bt cant help u i feel sry bi...
bi... thanks for all the thing that u did to me... and u promise me many thing u will did it... i really thanks tat... cause many ppl promise me bt in the end they cant did it... i really very happy that i will meet up with u... n knw u...
bi... i hope tat u will always be happy...
whenever u have something happen dont like push me away.. like dont tell me 1st, after settle the thing onli tell me, or call me dont worried n no need tam u ...
cause i hope tat i can make u feel better... i jus feel tat i cant help u solve the problem bt i still can make u happy...
bi... wish u happy always n miss u always.... muacks

worried someone

nw i worried bout someone important for me...
i dun wan he unhappy anymore...
whenever he gt anything haven i wish to be wit him and help him...
hwever i cant help him... i jus wan him to be happy...
bi... when u have anything happen.. i will always be wit u n help u...
i will try to make u hapi...
relax... dun be stress... everything will over... k...
muacks...

To my bi..

bi... whenever u unhappy or something happen...
i will always be with u n will listen what happen wit u...
n i will try to make u happy always...
i dun wan u always jus will tam me when u are nt in mood too...
ya... i 'm happy that u will tam me.. bt i dun wan be selfish too..
i should do it to u too...
bt i really happy tat u will tell me wat happen...
hwever u unhappy...
i will be there for u...
bi wish u happy always.... muacks...

happy day

i'm happy from the moment tat i knew u....
thanks for my bi... haha...
bi... thanks alot.. cause u make me change...
after i knew u i have been happy alot then the past...
thanks... n miss u....

tired days

i'm so tired for the few days... cause the clubbing night, ching ming n plus yesterday..
clubbing night i did nt sleep n drunk also... TT...
ching ming night i sleep 1 to 2 hour then wake up.. then after ching ming i wnt to have breakfast with grandpa. n this day my grandpa was so happy cause previous days when my grandpa want go for breakfast n my uncle cal us we wont go to have breakfast with him. cause all doing pig.. bt that day we 7 grandchildren accompany him went to have breakfast together n so noisy in the restaurant from the way go to the restaurant talk non stop n at restaurant also. when back to hsu also talk non stop n laught non stop... really is a great day for me n my grandpa was so happy. n that day i only sleep 7 hours.. yesterday dunno y... cant sleep... n chat with someone until 4 then wake up at 7 something... wah.. dame tired...

finally.. today finish my FIA d..

wow... i think all my friends that happy today cause no more book, no more exam.. jus relax..
haha...
me too...
i very happy tat finish this courses but i feel i miss the time when we all together.. which is the sem 1...
but now so fast d sem 3... time pass fast...
today is my last day in sunway college le..
however i dont like being at here.. but i still mis the memories that had in here...

jus now my friend sat my car n all sing" peng you" together.. wow.. feel like crying...
haha...
haiz... also last day see someone d...
hohoho...
TT.. that a night gonna be a good night...
also a good day....
jus now go eat snowflake.. wow.. is nice...

tmr is the final day d..

i still will miss someone that in my heart...
i dunno y he will become like tat...
we did nt have talk any more...
dunno y...
i always have this feeling that want to talk n play with him..
bt in the end i get is ntg... i jus knw he has talk n chat with my friends.. bt me??
no.. event others is doing wat he also will chat..
bt me?? also ntg..
i know him longer than my firends.. but y he jus talk with them n not talk wit me....
tmr start.. i have been free for all the days..
i will find the way tat forget all bout this...
about u n him...
finally.. i jus give myself a reason... however u become how... i jus will ask... n care.. i wont do other any more...
n however how i also wont put any feeling in it..thanks...

wow.. have been 6 year

dunno when start.. i have fall in love with u...
until now if i din guess wrong is about 6 years d...
bt now on i trying to give up for this relationship..
i feel that if i continue to wait for the answer, u also wont give me any answer...
so i'm trying to leave u n trying to take back my heart...
any where thanks for u...
because in this 6 years i know wat is love and know the feeling that waiting someone...
much of ppl ask me to give up... bt i dun wan hear..
now is the time for me already...
i was so happy that u will become my best friends..
in MSN u will find me to chat and sometimes when i unhappy u will say something to me.. thanks for u said to me that being with me is very happy...
actually dunno y... being with all of my friends they also say happy that know me...
is time to say goodbye to my dear lover.. is time to say hi to my dear best friend...
haha...
finally i have made a decision... no more waiting, no more crying...
i think when u back that time, i can have a good bf that can let u c...
cause u always ask me where my bf.. bt i always say no.. the reason that i say no is because of u....
However is very hard to forget n give up.. bt i wan to try it...
if not my life will jus onli u...
so i need to be dare to do it..
the last i want to say with u , i love u in the 6 years is real, n i will always be there for u.. when u unhappy can find me too... when i knw that u hav gf d i was so hurt but i know i cant say any thing.. when u say u have 3 or 4 gf, i jus feel that u should nt do that .. it will hurt others...
because of u i will think negative thing, but now wont any more...
thanks my dear.. wish u happy forever...

Time to say bye wit my college friends

wow... is have been about 1 year d which i study in sunway...
after this fri 5/3/2010 is time that we will separate again...
is sad for all of us.. because we have been know each other about 1 year.
on 16/3/2010.. hope all of us wont cry when the graduation is going... haha...
bt how we can swear that we wont cry leh...
from secondary to college.. i know u guys... bt now going to change again...
after this Foundation i think all of us will hard to meet up...
bt i still will always contact with u guys...
miss u guys and love u guys...
wish u guys dream come true... happy...

today feel wanna write something in my heart

i have been long time did not touch blog any more... in this year 2010... i have an unhappy begin.. but i hope in the following day i will get happy back.. because i have lost my pendrive.. in the pendrives there have many photo.. and the photo is my happy memories.. but now i know it wont come back to me any more.. ya.. my friends say it correct.. those memories is on the mind... so it wont be lost... but dunno y... i so scare that the memories i will forget... i scare one day i have forget all the thing that i have b4... i hope that the person who took my pendrive can return to me.. but unfortunally.. it wont happen... i miss it so much.. because every time when i open i sure will look at those photo that i have... because those photo is from my secondary sch till now... but now i know that it wont back to me.. so i will try to get another memories to take back.. but i know however take back also wont be the same as the photo... but now... i have been change alot...
i feel that i wont think any thing any more... like in the past i always think that i miss him or love him.. or feel hurt n others,.. but now i wont feel that any more... it is i forget him d.. or it is i have give up in thie relationship.... in the other way... i have been happy because of my family.... i went to malacca with my family.. in the few day i really happy... eat, eat, eat, and then shop shop shop.. haha.. is fun... however jus 2 days...
other than that, i have been close with my sister friends rather than my own friends..i think is because of in last year christmas eve we go club together n go penang together... we feel so enjoy in the days that we go for trip...