jus past my 17 now become 18...

i very happy that my dearest friends celebrate with me... this time i knew many new friends too..
on 2nd nov my dears all celebrate with me... n my dear da jie ( mee gee ) also got go.. actually i dunno they celebrate with me cause they just say wan discuss my birthday wan go where... n when i reach there i sit n chat with mee gee n jun keat... then my cousin n my dear 3rd jie go fetch my dear kah sing... then they go buy cake.. n when they take the cake come in to the place that i sit i so suprise.. n i so happy... n my dears jia hui n tuck poh also come n celebrate with me... love you guys my lovely dears all...

on 3rd nov... my mum say 4th wanna celebrate with me n i tell my mum that my others friends wan celebrate with me.. then i say change to today.. then my mum call the maid keep the food that wan cook.. then we go out n eat for dinner.. we go zhong wah n eat.. wah.. so nice the food.. ii eat so much.. all the " lala" i eat finish n fish also.. haha.. love my lovely famaily... muacks... n my aunty call me n say happy birthday to me too..love you..

on 4th of nov.. the real of my birthday.. haha... i receive many wish from my friends.. n thanks for u guys for the wishes... n in the afternoon i give my little cousin brother sleep cause he dun wan my sis to give him sleep n his mum went out d.. n i give him sleep n play with him.. after he sleep i start make up n bout 4 something my sis fetch me n my cousin go sunway. n we go shop awhile then go amp square... bout 7 :30pm all my dears come n some of others friends too....cause this day got 3 person birthday too... me, chee hen n tong ping... so they help us celebrate together..n also we not like sing k.. bout 9 something the sing k room like become clubbing ... we all get high n play till crazy.. haha.. n we drink much too...after that bout 3o++ people sing birthday song to us.. n i so happy... after that i need to back d.. n others friend like c us which mean me n my cousin.. n one of the boy say with me if want back must sing song 1st.. i laught say dun wan la.. haha... then we took a photo.. like big family de photo.. all in the photo... haha..
then i back home online.. i still think that he will wish me.. n that day i jus waiting for his wish..
but can't get from him..i so disappointed to him... b4 my birthday he still tell me he remember my birthday.. but on my birthday that day i did not get any thing... wish also din get it... i so sad bout this.. i cant imagine why he tell me he remember n he did not do any thing to me.. the whole day i waiting for his wish n in the mid night of 3rd of nov i saw he online but also din wish too... n i still think he will wish me so i online till 3 something.. but i cant get any thing.. is ok.. nvm..

but nvm.. may be he dun wan wish me or not free... however i very happy that my birthday was so great... thanks for my lovely family n my lovely dear friends..
love my family n friend n 7 sisterssss...

haha.. The cake not nice...

haha.. the cake is not nice.. but the taste is nice...

because this is the 1st time i bake the cake...

after learn to bake the cake n i bake...

haha

The cake... haha... not nice leh...

Wish him happy birthday...

friends forever.....

haha...

many thing to write...

haha.. but i have many thing to say... but dunno wan tell who also...
i very happy but dunno y....
and nowadays i learn baking...
n always bake...
haha...
may be feel like to bake...
i hope i can learn more n more ..
when he back i can make for him...
he birthday however i cant celebrate with him...
but i bake a cake for him...
n take photo n send to him..
but he cant eat the cake also..
but he say he very happy...
however my friends say me crazy.. but i din not feel i regret...haha...

Sunway Lagoon 8 of July 2009

This day is our happy and relax day...

because i went to Sunway Lagoon with my college friends..

Besides that, the reason that we so relax is we finish our final exam in semester 1...

haha...

so miss that day...hope can go again with them...

however jus we few but we play till crazy...

After our water war... we play all amusement park and water park...

Haha.. i took for them... haha.. so nice....my dears all...

wahahah.. we finish bath then go take photo... haha... miss u...

haha... we so happy that day....

wahahah... the worker know us.. cause we pls the 360 turning twice....haha

haha.. the worker so naughty... haha... peace.... muacks

me and my dear Jessica... miss her...

Me and my dear Megan.. so miss her... long time din c her d...

me and dear li voon... haha.... so happy

me and dear Amelia... sweet

me and dear roveena..haha sha po...

we all CRAZY FAMILY...Haha

To my heart...

He finally wanna come back..
but now.. i jus feel did not have feel with him le..
is this a good thing for me...
but i feel sad that he come back also no use le...
and i know that sometimes i will miss him and will think back all the memorise about him..
but i jus know that however how we wont be together any more..
So happy that he ( my friend) come back le..
haha...
wish him have a nice days...
and to my heart i will always miss our memorise.. and i wan to be hopeful to face the problem that i face now..
my colleg, my future, my friend, and my love...
i have no stress any more.. cause i wan to be relax in this two week..
because becasue i got holiday le..
wahahaha

To The King Of POP

However you are not here any more.. but we will love you and miss you... However you are not with us.. but your song will never end.. your song will in our mind forever and ever and ever...and your song will tell us that we are the world...
However your children not with you... but they will always miss you and love you.. and for your children they will happy to have you become their daddy...because you are the best daddy...
children you all must happy to have this daddy...however he is not with you all but you all must live in the peaceful life..because your daddy will always beside you all and always be with you all...and he will try to protect you all...
King of pop.. wish you live in the nice and peaceful paradise...we love you and we will always miss you...
You are not alone... because we will always remember you...

Our 5 years friendship

that day is our gathering...

haha.. so funny.. happy memories...

haha.. so funny... but this moment i think wont be back any more... me and u...

haha.. when we make our majalah... and we ponteng in here...

KTAR Trip...it was fun

haha... still remember this memories... it was so sweet for me...

this day was the 1st time i go clubbing... me and u... i still remember it...

All of us... jun keat, me, ai ling, san san, u and tai xi...

14 of march.. me and u...this day was so happy.. cause san san birthday...and our friendship still there...

my all dear sisters... san san ,u and me....

our sch life... me, kah sing and sarah( 5 years friendship)...

Our friendship... still got alot of photo...

but i have no time to upload...

thanks for u being my my dear friends so long.. and accompany me...

thanks for u...

bye.. FRIENDSHIP FOREVER AND 7 SISITERS FOREVER

this few day was so painful ... and also i have lost my bestfriend..

i get sick already...
in the 1/5 midnight...i go into sunway hospital and into the emergency wad...
because my throat was so pain.,.. and i can't talk and sleep..
and 2/5.. this day was so painful for me...
i going to see two doctor...
one is skin and the other is throat doctor...
the 1st... i see skin doctor..
cause my body all red dot..
and the doctor say that is chicken pox..
then i ask the doctor.. not onli will come out once..
the doctor say that everybody not same.. some will come out twice...
after that i go to sunway hospital again to see the throat doctor again...
the doctor use a tube strick into my nose till my throat to see what happen with my throat..
wah.,. that time is so painful for me..
really pain...

Besides this... i have lost my 5YEARS FRIENDSHIP...
i can't imagine the ppl how to broke our friendship..
i need to thanks to him..that he make me so hate him already..
and he make us feel so hurt and painful...
the feel that lost a best friend is so painful...
however she want to trust who i already wont care..
if she wan talk bout me what i also wont care any more already...
yaya..
i have lie her once...
but i really no heart to lie her..
cause i scare her anrgy ...
and i wont lie her any more after that 14/2
because i have promise my friend (kah sing) and her too..
cause (k s) say that we already become so many years friends why still want lie...
and i hear she say... and i dun dare to lie her any more..
cause i scare lost a best friends...and also i feel so sry with her...
and i din say any bad thing to the fucker...
cause in the 1st they are not friends...
because i know that she dun like him... cause he always say her...
and y should i tell the bad thing to the one that she dun like and i hate him too...
and i know that if want say the bad thing y i dun wan tell (k s) or others that close to her...
however also..
i know she wont trust me.. cause she will feel i lie her...
any where,... i know y she will trust him 1st..
i din blame on her...
and i will hate the fucker...
and i need to tell her that sorry that i lie her on 14/2...
however i already say once to her... but i really feel sry.....
ya...
that day yam cha... when (Mee Gee) ask me why u din come.. and i jus say ur mum dun let u drive so late..
and the boy who say want fetch u... i jus smile at him.. cause i know that he jus joke...
and i got tell mee gee that find one day we jus call all the girls out onli..
but now..
i think wont have this chance already..
cause we already nothing to say...
but i need to do is..
in the 1st.. i need to say sry to u.. cause that time i no heart to lie u...
the 2nd is... i need to thanks u... cause u begin my bestfriend so many years.. and accompany me when i face unhappy thing...
any where... u trust who also nvm.. if u feel u will happy then ok la...
and also..
happy to know u... and ur birthday present i will give u.. but not like u say the present is hurt...
any where..
i jus know that FRIENDSHIP FOREVER AND 7SISTERS FOREVER...
however u want to contact with him i also wont care le..
so wish u happy...
Bye my lovely friends and my lovely sister...

Suddenly feel unhappy.. my heart so pain too..

may be i think back all the past...
i can't forget it...
sunddenly feel very unhappy and feel my heart so pain..
pain until i can't breath too..
y all ppl can together with their lover so happy..
but me not the one who feel happy..
my lover already change himself so much any more..
my heart sunddenly feel so miss him...
hope that when i was unhappy or when i need him that time he can hug me ..
but that just a dream..
that is not true..
i feel want cry... i so miss him..

when i start my college life..
i already feel i far from him and also my all dearest friends..
until now..
my friends already least chat with me..
they have their new friends...
so that i going to lost many things..
may be i think too much..
but i already no choice
i so miss them..
nowadays.. i just all the thing need to do de in my timetable..
however the time is free..
i still will make myself busy...
so i wont think so much..
but just now.. when i watch movie dunno y suddenly a feel come to me.. and tell me i so miss someone who far from me...

i so hope that he can always hug me..
and give some love to me..
but that is dream..
so hope he happy and all my dearest friends too..
take care..

erm...

i so miss everyone...
especially is him...
wah.. already long time din see him...
when he go until now...
i'm start my college live too..
however is bored.. but sometimes will feel happy when think untill all of my frieds..
ya ya..
many ppl say that when start college life will miss secondary school life...
yaya.. i prefer the answer..
last time i also think that...
may be at college life is easy and happy..
but not also..
cause need to more and more hardworking..
and need to do presentation..
however dun dare to do but also must do...
so miss u guys..
and i so wish aday we can meet up all of us..
in college life.. i knew many new friends..
but i dun even same class with them becuase all subject we all not the same class.. just may be few subject with together onli..
so..
college life is hard to past...
haiz...
i so so so miss him also...
when sleep will force myself to think back his face..
cause long time din c him.. already dunno he change till how le..
dunno y.. always when close eyes can't imagine his face..
i so scare that i forget him...
but when think back the memories that me and him..
i can see back his face...
so happy to think back him ...
but he dunno that i so miss him also..
and he wont care but i happy or not.. and also he wont care bout that any more...

hahaha...

wah.. i finish my eassy d le..
so so so happy a..
just unhappy is my melaka trip finish d... i so miss my drinks...
haha
if next time got holiday call my parents bring me go again with my sis and cousin..
hahaha.
so enjoy in this trip...
haha...
and i finally finish my two eassy d...
hehe...

haha... so tired.. but very happy..

haha.. so happy la...
the reason that i so happy today is.. i settle all my Lcci cert de thing..
and today after my class i go to registry and i saw a boy who very very handsome ..
haha..
i can know that he is a good guys... haha
so so so happy...
however i dunno him.. but dunno y when after see him i be so happy...
i hope one of the day he will be my dear..
wahahah...
but i just joke la..
cause i can't forget my lover also..

start sch d...

haiz... start sch d...
dunno y feel different like last time..
may be is a new life ...and got some scare de feel....

yesterday... 20th of march...
he ask me i start sch d..
and chat with him till happy...
haha...
can do back friend with him i d very happy...

now i so tried.. cause my timetable whole week full d...
haiz..
so sad sad

today i very angry..

i very angry now.... because today my cousin bf call us to go pasar malam at cheras..
then my cousin call me fast and fast give answer..
then i say ok la... cause we also long time din go out at night d... i think my mum sure give...]
but when we on the way back home... i call my mum... my mum say can't , say far and rain and wat wat wat..then i tell my cousin can't la...
then she angry... and she quarrel with her bf...
then she blame me say y i so fast say ok and say not yet ask say ok...
then i very angry lo... is she call me faster answer...
always also like that...
every time i ask my mum... and when we go and late back... get scold de onli me...
not her...
i very angry and angry...
and i dun like to be so hai d...
next time she ask me wat i also wont answer d...
cause answer also wrong y wan answer...

Haha... dunno y feel unhappy...

Dunno wat to do any more...
like no idea for my life...
wanna start my college life d...
feel so scare...
may be no last time de fren study together d...
feel like not same...
today i go sunway with my dear little cousin bro...
he so cute... call me buy shirt for him and buy bear...
and i buy shirt and many bear for him...
and he so happy...
haha...

4th of march...
i go sunway also..
that day i go with my sis and suddenly my god bro call me...
then he ask me where r me now..
i tell him i st sunway.. then he come sunway... and walk together and with his fren...
and both of them make me and my sis laught whole day...
until we back we go yam cha near my house...
that time me, my cousin and my sis laught cause both or them...
haha...
dunno y... that day is happy.., but in my heart dunno wat feeling...
haha..
may be i crazy d..
dunno wat is feeling d...

love

Many ppl think that love can play...
But when love is start..
No one can stop it...
Love is like that...
Love is like a games...
When the games is start...
We need to ready the feeling that the games will game over...
And dun let the love over...
Over d... forever also wont come back any more...
We should happy when we get a lover...
And try to let our lover happy...
And we can together with our lover...
We should happy..
Because in this world..
Much of people...
We can together with lover is very hard thing...
So we need to happy....

Wish all people can be happy when it get love..
and dun let love gone...
and be happy together with lover..
and try to remember some happy memory..
and also can take some photo when we feel that is happy memory ...
if not when something happen...
did not have any thing to remind u with the happy memory...

suddenly miss him...

i can't sleep..
dunno y...
my heart like very miss him..
and hope to c him...
but i know this is impossible..
haha...
i so crazy...
dunno wat he doing now leh...
dunno he boring or not leh...
i always will think such thing...
i very scare he boring..
i know he wont boring de...
cause at there so much of liang lui...
he sure will happy...
haha..
i still so worry bout him...
but i dunno y... hope to c him now...
haiz...
i hope the happy feel come back with me when together with him..
i hope he always say something to me..
i hope when he unhappy ...
he will tell me.. and i will support him.. and give him some care..
haiz...
i know it wont come true..
cause he wont say to me d...
he will say with someone...
may be is his lover may be is his gf...
i'm not his lover any more and also not his gf any more...

always i laught.. but it is not the true...
i just act like happy..
when at msn.. i always write haha... but in my heart.. it can't laught out...
dunno y...
when i sit alone i will very scare and very miss him...
when i hear some song.. and think bout him.. i will cry...
haha.... dunno when i can forget such thing...

wah...

today when i open friendster... i did not see his comment...
jus now i open i jus know he night got online..
haha....
he got reply my comment..
but any where.. he already arrive...
me also no need so worry...
haha
he got a new life at there le...
haha...
i wish him happy always....

My heart was so pain...

tomorrow he going to taiwan le...
but i can't face to face to say good bye...
when we meet...
already ntg to chat le...
but i still keep on ask something..
nvm...
actually i dun wan so early back...
but all my friend wanna back le..
so i jus can follow...
when back i wan say good bye to him...
but he listen hp... and dunno walk to where le...
i so sad...
can't face to face say with him...
and from tomorrow i can't see him le..
he d going to taiwan tomorrow...
wat also can't do le..
jus can write at here and say good bye to him...

my dear lover....
good bye and take good care o...
dun make until yourself sick o...
and dun also sleep so late o...
when come back dun forget all our friend o...
cause all our friend will wait u back....
and when any unhappy thing happen u can think about all ur best friend...
and think back all happy de thing...
or u can online and find me chat or others also ok a...
dun keep in your heart and make until yourself sad...
however when u need some support..
i will always support...
and i will always pray that you have a good health...
and happy always...ntg happen...
and faster come back and meet together again with our friend...
bye my dear.. miss u.. and still loving u....muacks...

take care...

wah.. still got few days..

Is time to say good bye to him...
and is time to wait or give up...
i dunno i will choose which...
however i jus will know i love a person as long as i could...
and also as long as i can help or support him when he need help...

wah... after my thailand trip.. i feel i become happy more...
may be this trip can give me some happiness...
and in this trip my family and friend also can together ...
when my family and their friend play that time... play until crazy..
like play agua that time.. all like crazy and hamsap lou...
haha...
but jus got them play we jus can laught..
haha....
is the nice and happy trip...

is time to say bye to my dear lover le...
bye my dear...
wish u happy at there..
and take good care...
still love u...

very very unhappy

yesterday his house got party..
when i go there i feel unhappy...
dunno y...
may be still got 19 days he wanna go le...
when i at there i din talk with him or others..
actually i think i should give up...
but i can't do..
cause he is the most important ppl in my hear...
i miss him so much and love him so much...

Feel unhappy

nowadays i have been normal with the feel of lonely and missing...
i very miss someone but i din tell him...
the feel everyday also stay with me...
dunno y.. i still wan be stupid... still miss him...
that day my fren told me that my lover wanna go oversea already...
but i can't do any thing also..
they say wan celebrate with him...
but i can't go...
i very useless... he wanna go oversea already i wat also can't do for him...
just wish him happy forever...

if the day that he want go oversea.. and i hope to say with him all my heart wan say de thing....
but i know that this is impossible...
haiz...
i know that i will regreat one day...
i really very love him... from form 3 till now...
but wat to do...
i jus will wait...
cause after 2 years he will back and after 3 years i won't at malaysia already...
may be i already at australia d...
may be i will give up half way... but i think i can't do tat...
so sry...

Nowadays

Wat is love...
can someone tell me...
i already can't afford any more...
feel no energy to afford the pain and the hurt...
Nowadays.. everynight when i'm alone.. i will think back all the thing..
it make me so miss...
Am i regreat??
no... cause i know that love is blind... however he treat me what...
i will still support him and stand by his side....
when he need someone accompany him.. i will always be there for him...
Am i stupid??
many friends say that i'm the most stupid person in this world...
because i know that we won't together any more...
but i still give myself hopeless... and when see any cloths that nice... however also will buy for him...
What is the feeling of the love??
can someone tell me...
cause i dunno... and i already did not trust love any more...
actually i will always call all my friend to tresure their lover wish them together forever...
but when i face to my love problem.. i already no energy to afford and also no courage to trust love... cause i always get hurt...
and i need to say that dun give any promise to any one...
if in the end u din do it... it will make someone more hurt....
i already try hard to face my love problem... but i can't afford any more...
today i only know that i have been very very love him nowadays...
always will try to message him and give hope to myself that he will reply... however in the end he won't reply... i will give the reason is.. his phone out of credit....
Am i stupid...
actually i already try hard to tresure the love... but why... why want like that treat me...
and also... i feel that he already have a new lover... but i still wanna buy present for him...
many ppl feel that i'm stupid...
but i just wan to give him the best thing and hope that he won't forget me...
and that day... when my friend and me at car.. i tell her that i d very hard... and i cry... my friend scold me that why i wan so stupid,,,, and my friend because see me so hard... she also feel wan cry...
actually.. i hope to tell all my friend that... wish them happy forever...
and hope them dun like me....
i already can't out of this love....
and i can't be happy nowadays.... may be will unhappy forever?? may be won't..
but i know that however happy also got a limit....
cause he going to leave me....
may be he happy...
but i hope to tell him...
i still love him...
however i still will wait..
when he come back .. however he got gf... i still will wait...
take care my dear lover...
love u so much .. i hope that i can be stupid forever..
and however u won't together with me... i will always support u...
my dear lover...
if one day u feel unhappy i will always be with you...
if one day u feel want cry... come and find me... may be i will cry together with u.. and hug u..
if one day u feel regreat for something... come and find me dear... i will always support u...
if one day u sunddenly want tell me something... u can call me .. and i will chat with u...
if one day u can't afford any pain and hurt... jus tell me... and i can afford ur pain and hurt... and just want u be happy and won't pain so much...
if one day u argue with ur gf... and u want find someone chat... u can find me... i will help u... and i will tell ur gf... u are the good bf...
dear... however u have any problem.. u can tell me.. i will listen u... and support u...
dear.. however u hurt me.. but can together with u is the best and happy thing in my life...
my dear lover... i wish that u can be happy forever ..
if u unhappy and wan to exchange i will exchange that give u happy and i get unhappy...
i hope to give u the best thing.. but i dunno when i can't afford already...
i really scare that when u unhappy that time i become weak and fall and dunno how to make u happy...
now i still can afford...
please my dear lover... promise me that u will happy forever...
however also no need care me hurt/ pain/ unhappy.... just u happy and u can get ur lover...
i already nothing...
if want to exchange any thing from me to make u happy... i will exchange...
and please all the girls... dun hurt my dear... if i know i will hate her till very bad...
My dear lover... this is the last word that i want tell u...
My dear lover, I will always LOVE U and I will LOVE U FOREVER...
And i very miss u.... really... miss the time when together with u too... really miss...
Dear dear.. i won't blame u that u hurt me and won't blame u that promise me something then u can't do... cause not ur wrong... may be u wan to change a better one...
Thanks dear... u let me learn something...
However also wish u happy... take care... i will always be there for u... be HAPPY...





Already is too late for me.. many ppl call me to tell him that i love him...
But i know that he won't together with me any more..
However i do how many thing...
so i jus wish that i can be friend with him... however i still love him...
Can't do couple.. but can do friend..
but this friend is not the normal to the other..
and i will always support this friend and stand by his side...
so Friendship Forever...

Today i get my pay

Today is the 1st time i get my pay.... i did not work b4.. so i very happy that get this pay...
but i very miss him... i hope to chat with him and share my happiness....
i really love him... i hope to face to face and say happy new year with him..
better than now... i message him and tell him he also din reply....
it make me so hurt,...
dunno y ... every time i will very very miss him... and will think all the memory...
and some time will buy some present for him...
when i c any shop who have the cloths that he like i will buy ..
however how expensive,..
i just hope that he can chat with me like friend...
i also hope to chat with him b4 he goes...
hope this 2009 he will happy always,,,
however i unhappy also nevermind...
thanks for him give me happiness in 2007 and 2008...
and thanks for him give me happiness..
still love him and miss him..
however i can't face to face say happy new year to him...
i will wish him happy new year in my heart and wish that he will happy always...
thanks my lover,,, happy new year...