Nowadays

Wat is love...
can someone tell me...
i already can't afford any more...
feel no energy to afford the pain and the hurt...
Nowadays.. everynight when i'm alone.. i will think back all the thing..
it make me so miss...
Am i regreat??
no... cause i know that love is blind... however he treat me what...
i will still support him and stand by his side....
when he need someone accompany him.. i will always be there for him...
Am i stupid??
many friends say that i'm the most stupid person in this world...
because i know that we won't together any more...
but i still give myself hopeless... and when see any cloths that nice... however also will buy for him...
What is the feeling of the love??
can someone tell me...
cause i dunno... and i already did not trust love any more...
actually i will always call all my friend to tresure their lover wish them together forever...
but when i face to my love problem.. i already no energy to afford and also no courage to trust love... cause i always get hurt...
and i need to say that dun give any promise to any one...
if in the end u din do it... it will make someone more hurt....
i already try hard to face my love problem... but i can't afford any more...
today i only know that i have been very very love him nowadays...
always will try to message him and give hope to myself that he will reply... however in the end he won't reply... i will give the reason is.. his phone out of credit....
Am i stupid...
actually i already try hard to tresure the love... but why... why want like that treat me...
and also... i feel that he already have a new lover... but i still wanna buy present for him...
many ppl feel that i'm stupid...
but i just wan to give him the best thing and hope that he won't forget me...
and that day... when my friend and me at car.. i tell her that i d very hard... and i cry... my friend scold me that why i wan so stupid,,,, and my friend because see me so hard... she also feel wan cry...
actually.. i hope to tell all my friend that... wish them happy forever...
and hope them dun like me....
i already can't out of this love....
and i can't be happy nowadays.... may be will unhappy forever?? may be won't..
but i know that however happy also got a limit....
cause he going to leave me....
may be he happy...
but i hope to tell him...
i still love him...
however i still will wait..
when he come back .. however he got gf... i still will wait...
take care my dear lover...
love u so much .. i hope that i can be stupid forever..
and however u won't together with me... i will always support u...
my dear lover...
if one day u feel unhappy i will always be with you...
if one day u feel want cry... come and find me... may be i will cry together with u.. and hug u..
if one day u feel regreat for something... come and find me dear... i will always support u...
if one day u sunddenly want tell me something... u can call me .. and i will chat with u...
if one day u can't afford any pain and hurt... jus tell me... and i can afford ur pain and hurt... and just want u be happy and won't pain so much...
if one day u argue with ur gf... and u want find someone chat... u can find me... i will help u... and i will tell ur gf... u are the good bf...
dear... however u have any problem.. u can tell me.. i will listen u... and support u...
dear.. however u hurt me.. but can together with u is the best and happy thing in my life...
my dear lover... i wish that u can be happy forever ..
if u unhappy and wan to exchange i will exchange that give u happy and i get unhappy...
i hope to give u the best thing.. but i dunno when i can't afford already...
i really scare that when u unhappy that time i become weak and fall and dunno how to make u happy...
now i still can afford...
please my dear lover... promise me that u will happy forever...
however also no need care me hurt/ pain/ unhappy.... just u happy and u can get ur lover...
i already nothing...
if want to exchange any thing from me to make u happy... i will exchange...
and please all the girls... dun hurt my dear... if i know i will hate her till very bad...
My dear lover... this is the last word that i want tell u...
My dear lover, I will always LOVE U and I will LOVE U FOREVER...
And i very miss u.... really... miss the time when together with u too... really miss...
Dear dear.. i won't blame u that u hurt me and won't blame u that promise me something then u can't do... cause not ur wrong... may be u wan to change a better one...
Thanks dear... u let me learn something...
However also wish u happy... take care... i will always be there for u... be HAPPY...





Already is too late for me.. many ppl call me to tell him that i love him...
But i know that he won't together with me any more..
However i do how many thing...
so i jus wish that i can be friend with him... however i still love him...
Can't do couple.. but can do friend..
but this friend is not the normal to the other..
and i will always support this friend and stand by his side...
so Friendship Forever...