Suddenly feel unhappy.. my heart so pain too..

may be i think back all the past...
i can't forget it...
sunddenly feel very unhappy and feel my heart so pain..
pain until i can't breath too..
y all ppl can together with their lover so happy..
but me not the one who feel happy..
my lover already change himself so much any more..
my heart sunddenly feel so miss him...
hope that when i was unhappy or when i need him that time he can hug me ..
but that just a dream..
that is not true..
i feel want cry... i so miss him..

when i start my college life..
i already feel i far from him and also my all dearest friends..
until now..
my friends already least chat with me..
they have their new friends...
so that i going to lost many things..
may be i think too much..
but i already no choice
i so miss them..
nowadays.. i just all the thing need to do de in my timetable..
however the time is free..
i still will make myself busy...
so i wont think so much..
but just now.. when i watch movie dunno y suddenly a feel come to me.. and tell me i so miss someone who far from me...

i so hope that he can always hug me..
and give some love to me..
but that is dream..
so hope he happy and all my dearest friends too..
take care..

erm...

i so miss everyone...
especially is him...
wah.. already long time din see him...
when he go until now...
i'm start my college live too..
however is bored.. but sometimes will feel happy when think untill all of my frieds..
ya ya..
many ppl say that when start college life will miss secondary school life...
yaya.. i prefer the answer..
last time i also think that...
may be at college life is easy and happy..
but not also..
cause need to more and more hardworking..
and need to do presentation..
however dun dare to do but also must do...
so miss u guys..
and i so wish aday we can meet up all of us..
in college life.. i knew many new friends..
but i dun even same class with them becuase all subject we all not the same class.. just may be few subject with together onli..
so..
college life is hard to past...
haiz...
i so so so miss him also...
when sleep will force myself to think back his face..
cause long time din c him.. already dunno he change till how le..
dunno y.. always when close eyes can't imagine his face..
i so scare that i forget him...
but when think back the memories that me and him..
i can see back his face...
so happy to think back him ...
but he dunno that i so miss him also..
and he wont care but i happy or not.. and also he wont care bout that any more...

hahaha...

wah.. i finish my eassy d le..
so so so happy a..
just unhappy is my melaka trip finish d... i so miss my drinks...
haha
if next time got holiday call my parents bring me go again with my sis and cousin..
hahaha.
so enjoy in this trip...
haha...
and i finally finish my two eassy d...
hehe...

haha... so tired.. but very happy..

haha.. so happy la...
the reason that i so happy today is.. i settle all my Lcci cert de thing..
and today after my class i go to registry and i saw a boy who very very handsome ..
haha..
i can know that he is a good guys... haha
so so so happy...
however i dunno him.. but dunno y when after see him i be so happy...
i hope one of the day he will be my dear..
wahahah...
but i just joke la..
cause i can't forget my lover also..

start sch d...

haiz... start sch d...
dunno y feel different like last time..
may be is a new life ...and got some scare de feel....

yesterday... 20th of march...
he ask me i start sch d..
and chat with him till happy...
haha...
can do back friend with him i d very happy...

now i so tried.. cause my timetable whole week full d...
haiz..
so sad sad

today i very angry..

i very angry now.... because today my cousin bf call us to go pasar malam at cheras..
then my cousin call me fast and fast give answer..
then i say ok la... cause we also long time din go out at night d... i think my mum sure give...]
but when we on the way back home... i call my mum... my mum say can't , say far and rain and wat wat wat..then i tell my cousin can't la...
then she angry... and she quarrel with her bf...
then she blame me say y i so fast say ok and say not yet ask say ok...
then i very angry lo... is she call me faster answer...
always also like that...
every time i ask my mum... and when we go and late back... get scold de onli me...
not her...
i very angry and angry...
and i dun like to be so hai d...
next time she ask me wat i also wont answer d...
cause answer also wrong y wan answer...

Haha... dunno y feel unhappy...

Dunno wat to do any more...
like no idea for my life...
wanna start my college life d...
feel so scare...
may be no last time de fren study together d...
feel like not same...
today i go sunway with my dear little cousin bro...
he so cute... call me buy shirt for him and buy bear...
and i buy shirt and many bear for him...
and he so happy...
haha...

4th of march...
i go sunway also..
that day i go with my sis and suddenly my god bro call me...
then he ask me where r me now..
i tell him i st sunway.. then he come sunway... and walk together and with his fren...
and both of them make me and my sis laught whole day...
until we back we go yam cha near my house...
that time me, my cousin and my sis laught cause both or them...
haha...
dunno y... that day is happy.., but in my heart dunno wat feeling...
haha..
may be i crazy d..
dunno wat is feeling d...